I’ve been feeling completely unprepared for the start of this new year and the start of a new decade. I had grand plans to be very intentional about goals and the direction I want to head this year and this decade. I envisioned spending time meditating and connecting with my inner mentor a few times to help me get on the path to be an ideal version of myself. But in real life, I haven’t had the time or energy to do that or to do more than just survive the last few weeks of 2019. The holidays are always a beautiful time full of love and family but are also hectic with multiple priorities, total disregard for the routine, skipped bedtimes and far too much sugar. Now that we’re over a week into the new year, we’re slowly starting to get our groove back. The routine is real, bedtime is back (but not always adhered too), and I’m really trying to only eat one cookie a day. And I’ve decided I don’t need a huge sweeping life change to be the ideal version of myself. It’s ok that I haven’t had the time to do the soul searching and inner dialogue I had planned. I can just be me, the same old me that I have been. The only thing that I want more of in 2020 is kindness, loving kindness, to myself and others. So that is my focus for this year - be kind. I won’t sit with the initial thought that I need to be doing more or I’m not enough and instead I will be kind to myself in those moments and recognize all the ways that I am enough. And I will enact the ideas of kindness that inspire me daily - write the card, send the flowers, donate, show up and be present with the people I love when they need me. It’s a small thing but I it’s just right for me and that is enough.
